Nov 5, 2020


Things, thoughts, ideas:

My mind is in chaos.

I look for help from left to right

Alas I find nothing in sight.

Swimming in this mess,

Trying to stay afloat;

Giving up doesn’t seem like an option

Neither does living on.

I am tired.

Tired of trying to rest-

I keep chasing the calm

That plays hide and go seek

Like it hears nobody’s scream.

What have I become?

Who am I now?

Can someone give me answers,

Or do you wanna have fun?

Back and forth we run;

In and out of the sun.

I can’t keep doing this

I can’t keep fighting anymore.

Let the chaos win,

Win over my mind and my soul.

Cause at this point, I couldn’t, couldn’t care no more.